In The Beginning

Like I said in my first post, my life has been pretty stressful when it comes to relationships. And I realize that I am partly to blame for that. However, sometimes I feel like I live in the Matrix. You know how some people say that God never gives you more than you can handle? Lies…..haha. I don’t buy that. I was married and divorced by the time I was 33 and had 2 beautiful daughters. I focused on being the best father I could for the next 15 years and never really had what I would call a serious relationship and that was by choice. But as my girls got older I was more open to the idea and started to have some serious relationships. But this story is about my most recent so I digress. I met her in the grocery store of all places. In today’s world where 95% of people meet online, meeting someone at the grocery store felt like I made it up. But nope it’s true. She worked there part time and I would see her at least once or twice a week. We had instant chemistry without even talking. But I could tell she was much younger than I was so I just played it cool. Or as she would later tell me…I was playing it dumb. We eventually started talking and over time both of us would look forward to seeing each other and I would try and pick days that I knew she would be there so I could see her. This went on for a year and a half until one day when I was leaving she said “hey this is my last day” and I couldn’t believe it. I was crushed. I never got up the nerve to ask for her number because of the age factor and now I would never know. The way we looked into each others eyes when she told me was something I will never forget. I feel like she was wanting me to ask for her number but sadness in both of our eyes because I think we both new that I wouldn’t ask. But you know this can’t be the end of the story…..right?